Sunday, November 25, 2007

So far so good.
I think my plans are going along well. With a baby shower and suprise parties, i think i have exorcised any party demons, at least for the mean time. Back to the grind *sigh*

2 tests this week, a paper to write, and 5 finals. Why do this to myself, i don't know. I still need to get that dang thing typed for international week.

So why am i here, seeing as i have a bunch of stuff to do? I don't know. I think that itch is coming again.

You know.

That Itch.

Comes every couple of years or so (i think every 2 years is a good estimate). Its the itch to break out of my skin, break out my environment, and go somewhere where i don't know anyone and start afresh. Usually, i can quell this by travelling (CA HERE I COME!), and that dose lasts me a while. But it'll come back. I know it.

Meanwhile, another beloved bastard is back again. Yup. Back again to wreak havoc. But i am usually able to defeat him quickly. Besides, i don't have time for that junk, seeing as i have a ton of stuff to do. Meanwhile, the daredevil in me has been trying for weeks now to rear its head, and i have been pushing back, but i do have to say that my immunity is down right now. I know that if i do it, i can get away with it, and like all human beings, i can justify myself to the point of shutting up my conscience. But i won't do it. You know why? Because i don't really want it. The fact that it comes and goes is testament enough. I think i just like to stir a ruckus (i get bored fast ladies and gentlemen). And now, i bid farewell, probably for a while, as i tackle Optics/Epidemiology/Ecosystems Ecology/the effervescent Alice Walker. KE KWANU?

Caged.

Thud.
Thud.
Pssssssssssssss..............
There we go again.
Resolutions and revolutions
Around and around and around
Like the permanency of a nought
words clabber in my soul
phssssssssssssssssshh..........................
I hear them
they hear me.
conversation
the unism of evil
buried incidences, escaping reality, the refusal to face pain
Thud thud thud.......

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Phew!!!!

Started the weekend thinking i would get a whole lot of rest..... FAT CHANCE!!
Started out chilling, then working, then going for a baby shower/party/political war (don't ask). I actually lost my voice, arguing over tintillating topics (ah, the joys on the intelligencia :))

Worked, chatted, cooked (its suprising how much i cook, and i actually hate cooking).
Oh, and did i mention i fed 7 boys? yup. 7 Grown ass mehn. And lil' me. Wow. Was fun sha (minus the stalker gf of a friend, long story).

Plagued again by old nemesis. Emotional trivia yet again (sigh, i hate girls), but the peace of the Lord which passes all understanding reigns on my heart still--thank you God.

Connecting with my savior again, after all these months. Experiencing a joy that cannot be explained. Knowing that everything is sorted out... you should try it.

New Business: Male prospects, modelling, travels, work, heading 2 organisations, 5 more exams and 6 finals...... With God, i can do all things, nothing is impossible.......... :)

Monday, November 5, 2007

Questions.

why
why
WHY!
Questions unanswered pounding thumping
curiosity the weed of the brain
Sniff........Sniff............
Aaaaaaaaahhh......... .
Satisfaction.
Patience demanded, required
not possible
The little devil jumps
aims higher
and higher
and higher
S***!!!!!
Where the hell is my weed?